Office by Alex Penny
I saw you on the news today Michelle. It was not what i expected. I hope it brought better news but … Where are you cousin? Who kidnapped you? What happened? Why is that all the facts the police found is leading to a possible rape case or first degree…?
We miss you. Please come back to us safe and sounded. I love you cousin Michelle Le.
Chris Le asks if I’ve ever heard him sing on the chat.
Why are all you Le boys so weird D=!?the main reason why im never on chat.
Chris Le. ‘nuff said.
You guys are all douche bags. Remember that, I will.
Faith.
If you begin off without any faith in your success then your actions will turn into failure and you are left with worse consequences.
I need to start soon.
While our lives are moving along a content pathway, we do not even give a second thought about where we stand. Everything from socializing to working seem to have this inhuman speed. In other words, our lives seem to speed up and things start mashing together. It is hard to specificity each pleasing moments. We just agree that our lives are pretty darn good and we are pretty darn happy/content. But what we tend to forget or ignore are the moments that scar us.
The truth is that the moments that our lowest are the ones we cannot ever forget, no matter what we do. They are the moments we wish we could change everything, hoping … that things were different. These moments are the ones that drag on.
What hurts the most is not knowing what could have been; if you could have just asked for that single dance or took a chance to have a personal conversation with that person. Would it change everything? Would your life be completely different if you just charged right in?
We ask ourselves these questions when we are in our deepest holes. The holes we create out of our irrationality; consequently, there is nothing in these holes but our own guilt. So why do we do follow our own stupidity? And on that note, why do we ride it until everything blows in our faces? … risking everything. Even the things, the people we care about. Why do I not just open my eyes and see my effects?
If I could change it all, I would.
Eh… I only hope.
“To me, we’re marketing hope.” ~ Joel Osteen
How long has it been since I had a nice cup of Joe in the rain? 3 years… 4? humm. For the matter of fact… how long has it been since I had a peaceful afternoon without the caretakers yelling pointless?
It is a pain.
My life is drama after drama, but who does not have drama in their life.
You know someone just asked me the other day, “Chris when are you going to ask? It has been years now and you keep holding on this dream.” I told him that “I just do not know. What do I have to offer?” Come on, it is me!
Ironically right after the conversation, I got this little small piece of paper from a fortune cookie saying “Stop worrying and take a chance.” How cliche. These vague little papers that supposedly tell your future. And I wondered how we market false hope just wishing that God give us a gift. First of all, what is hope? Is it Wikipedia’s definition that “a belief in a positive outcome related to events and circumstance in one’s life.” Or Arielle’s definition that “faith without proof when people are really, truly hopeful, they have no evidence or logic that leads them to be that way.” But I think of hope, I think of a new father holding the belly of a mother whispering I love you.
I guess Hope is like God or love. You can make as many examples and definitions about an intangible meaning but in the end… do you know exactly what it is? You just have to believe in it… to have faith.
I won some tickets to watch the San Diego orchestra… maybe that is a Hope? A gift a God.
